Love: An Awakening

At 1:50 am on July 15, after 38 weeks, 5 days and 20 hours of anticipation, I met my daughter.

I am one of the lucky ones who knew from the second I saw her face that we belonged to each other. No book or conversation or class can prepare for you for the depth and breadth of that moment–when your life closes in from all angles to this one point of focus. Your breath is linked to her breath, your heartbeat to her heartbeat, your happiness to her happiness.

I saw Love when I saw her. When I held her. When my husband gazed at her. When she gasped deep and wailed from her tiny lungs for the first time.

She carried a fullness, a passionate overflow of peace into my heart with one simple look. And every corner that held worries or fears about her place in my world emptied into bliss.

On an early summer morning, before the sun had time to shine, with pouty lips, puffy cheeks and a head of wavy dark hair, my baby girl taught me where the truest beauty in this life rests.

In a father’s proud eyes that follow his child’s every move while holding his wife’s hand ever tighter.
In grandmothers’ beaming faces as they count just the right number of fingers and toes.
In a grandfather’s steady hand as he comforts an exhausted daughter.
In a family that wages bets on being deemed the favorite.
In friends who share tears at the weight of your joy.

In the soul of a girl who looks into a baby’s rounded face and knows
she is a mother.

addison nat2

13 thoughts on “Love: An Awakening

  1. I’m crying too. This is so beautiful, friend. You’ve summed up all my thoughts in the most perfect way. I couldn’t be happier for you. I love you!

  2. This is so beautifully said. I type with tears running down my face. I couldn’t be more happier for you and Clayton. The moment you feel unconditional love, in my opinion, is when you become a mom. I’m excited for all the moments and memories that have begun in your life. I thank God that I’m a part of it. You and your family mean the world to me. I love you, Nat. Addison is blessed to have you for her mommy!

  3. When I had you sweet daughter, I was not a journal keeper; no one had even heard of blogging. But I can tell you if I had, I might not have penned my feelings as eloquently but I felt them just the same. Never again do I have to describe to you how it felt when they put you in my arms those first moments of your life. There were so many “scares” with you. During our long hospitalization, I talked to you more than anyone else because it was just you and me in that room, all those long months. We have lots of secrets you and I! Back then pictures weren’t taken in the labor room but my mind holds every memory of your first moments as vivid as a photograph. Better yet, I can still feel how it felt to hold you for the very first time. I don’t think I ever told you this before that my very first words to you were “we made it little girl, I love you”. Some things never change. Mom

  4. Between your entry and your Mom’s sweet comment. I am fighting back tears right now….This is the sweetest description of delivery day I have ever seen. Love this!

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